this is a joke; dont take it literally but emotionally

Im writing this note before I commit suicide

I cant help it anymore to be honest

My body shakes too much from all the drugs I take

My body craves THE sex

I don't know what to do anymore

School isn’t keeping me sane

My mom cares for me too much

And I know when I go she will feel sad but

This is a choice

A choice for me

So it should be made by me

I don't know what else to say

I know they say if you know something

About someone who is talking about suicide

You should contact someone you know immediate

Ly

But I would appreciate it if you didn't

Not for me

I don't deserve it

Who am i

Do I really know

I don't think I will ever come to peace

With anything that has happened to me

Im 18 and I feel like the my life has been so sad

Im worried to have sex cause im worried the girl will get pregnant

Im worried of the future because I don't know if I will succeed

Im worried to let my friends and parents down

Im worried to not have any friends

Im worried that I wont ever find a wife that I like

Im worried that my kids will be born with a disease

Im worried that I will get a disease…

Im worried of what people will remember about me… itll be good things right?

Im scared of the future

I honestly am worried of the future.

I heard the best way to fix your problems is to face them

But what if I cant do it

What if I don't have the balls to face my problems

I don't know if I do

I am tired of being worried

Suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

And I can take or

Leave it

If I please

Shoutout to M.A.S.H.